It's the end of another year, more than 2 years now back at work after that life changing car accident, almost 3 years past that nightmare and getting close to 10 years of employment at this plant.
Both of my youngest sons are now here, again, and I am down to 2 windows left to replace, the attic space I once dreamed about is here, far from finished but usable.
The winter has turned cold, all the work that has been done here to lower the utility costs here has helped. I know there a lot more to be done but it's nice to know progress has been made.
Webs has some great sock yarns on sale and I got yarns for sweaters for both Jake and myself. Mine is started and will be a fun knit for me, lots of different textured patterns to make a Gansey. Jake will have a very wearable and washable sweater in a blue-green that he chose.
My world has balance and value and works for me, and there are no dreams of building a life with someone for a partner. There was a time when I thought that would be a reality, someone who loved and accepted me for who I really am. Now, I am content with a quiet friendship with a man whose company I enjoy and who understands that I cannot or will not consider sharing a home.
There is so much good in my life to appreciate and be thankful for, and don't want to whine or cry about lost dreams and disappointments, looking back gains me nothing but sorrow so instead I will look forward.
Watching Star Trek and looking at my knitting projects, tucked in my attic nest, a good work week and a Sunday spent with my friend Sharon to look forward to.