Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers in my world, those I know, those I’m related to, those that do all that stuff that needs done and rarely get a pat on the back or given credit for what they do.
Happy Mother’s Day to my only daughter, who gave birth to 4 children but didn’t parent them through their growing years. I know I didn’t always set a good example, I know I wasn’t mature enough when you were born, and didn’t have very good guidance to help me learn better parenting skills.
I didn’t provide the stability or standard of living that would have provided you with a better foundation but I did the best I could and the best I knew how to. I made a lot of foolish decisions and chose relationships that were not good for either of us far too often. But I did all I could to try and set good values, ethics and protect you from harm.
And you made choices and picked your own direction in life, I helped you pick up the pieces a couple times, which is also part of being a parent, and when you told me to get out of your life and stay out, I did that too. But I never quit caring or loving you or praying that your life is good, that you are healthy, happy and doing well.
I can’t build a bridge that I didn’t burn or tear down, it takes 2 for that to happen and it’s not something you want, so I wish you well and hope life is good for you.
Happy Mother’s Day to my oldest granddaughter, who is now a mother of 4, and has had some very hard and rough times throughout her young life. Not all of those were of your choosing or your doing, but some were, and you have for years now been the person in charge of your life and your directions. I wish you health and happiness, and that your life is good.
I do a lot of thinking at work about my life and past decisions and choices and about both of you and our relationships, and have regrets but I know I cannot change the past, I cannot ‘fix’ anything that has happened and I also know I’m not to blame for a lot of things that have happened in your lives, I’m not at fault and I didn’t cause it. I packed around that guilt for a long time, and I admit that I let myself be manipulated by that guilt feeling and by my own feelings of failure.
I wish you both health, peace and good lives.
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