I am behind and did not get my annual letter done yet but will before the end of the year. will also clean off the downstairs computer desk and file papers so I can use that space better.
But as for this Christmas stuff, I am still not playing. It is still a holiday that was adopted by the Catholic Church to help convert and keep converted those pagans I am probably genetically related to. And it was turned into a big commercial thing to help stores make money and help guilt trip people into spending a lot more money.
Yes, a lot of good things get done at this time of the year. People who will not otherwise part with change, will drop it in red buckets, or will write a check for a charity. They will donate to food banks and other things and remember to be more polite and nice to their neighbors.
I just don't play any more than I have to. I appreciate the 2 paid days off I now have, now that I am back in production, and I like food, but for the most part, I just want left out of all the merriment and so forth.
I finally got the sewing studio mucked out again, no more drywall leaning against the book wall, no drywall jack in the way so can enjoy sewing in there and I even have the rocking chairs cleared off so I can sit or a guest can sit there. The south end, my retreat has most of the ceiling drywall up but I need to do part/most of the slope on both sides plus that area in the storage/doll areas and the entire south end.
The north end has more area done or rather the drywall up but it is a long way from finished and might never get done. I will keep working on it as I have funds, energy and a bit of help.
Wish 1 and all a very good winter season, and so forth. And often thank God for the choices made, by myself and by others that has my life where it is and living how I live.
Jake has a 3.6 grade average this term and is enjoying the holiday break from class. He spends time with the gal pal, and is putting more hours in at the livestock sale barn where he works.
That dog is almost 7 months now, and we know he spells Attitude in all capital letters some days. And he is vocal about his displeasure, very funny but I would not have tolerated it in my human children. So, yes, he is spoilt rotten here and knows we cave in. But I am working on some issues with him and know he needs more structure (discipline) a firm view of Mom as pack leader to be respected and neutered. Jake has that scheduled for this coming Monday, as he forgot, slept, had company, any of the above for missing the appointment I had made this past Monday.
Occasionally cross paths with someone I used to date, back when the house needed the waterline trench dug and the new line put in. And religion was the issue there, but he is a good man and a nice guy and now married, retired from the plant so I cross paths with him at local stores. He says hi, smiles and his wife looks like a not happy, not joyful woman. But, hey, not my place to judge, and not my life. And I am so very glad she is his wife and I am not.
Mike F. has posted a comment on my Facebook and an occasional google search has never pulled up an obit on him so I know he is still alive. Still has not told me he deliberately lied and attempted to deceive me about his debt obligations but since I did find that foreclosure notice on line, and he sure was not honest about that, and the cell phone bill kept being unpaid or under paid and I kept paying on a cell bill that was not my usage. Ya, I made a wise choice to call a halt to that. Sorry we could not have found a way to be friends but I will toss that one his way. I was not the one lying/using the other party. Acknowledging,admitting, saying, 'ya, I screwed up, finances are a mess and I did not want to admit it' would have gone a long way. I screw up and I sure hate to admit it, to myself and to others, especially to those that matter.
But I also learned a very long time ago, that the only way I could fix things, make better choices, clean up my mess, was to start with admitting there was a mess, and that I had some or all the responsibility for that mess happening. And I am still doing that.
Hey, it is my fault the water heater has some issues, hey, I am the person who should have been draining/flushing it every year since I put it in and ya, I am the person who will be dealing with it, and it is top on the list once the temps are staying getting a bit warmer and I have a day off work. I will do what it takes to clean up the mess, I will buy the thing a new lower element and I will work at being more responsible about flushing the stupid tank yearly.
I am honest about liking living by myself best, this old house and my own life. I don't get bored often or lonely, just so much here for me to do when I do have time off work and energy to do it and I like my own company. I am so glad I got rid of tv service, I don't miss that either. I do have Netflicks and don't use that very often but don't mind the $8/month bill for the service.
I like the man I date, better as we have been dating almost 3 years, but I like a lot more alone time in my own space than makes for a good relationship for him. We manage to accept each other as we really are and enjoy the time together, but I spent all of yesterday holed up in my house, and glad when Jake and his gal-pal left so I could have the place to just me and the critters, Shadow the dog and my loud and vocal parrots.
So, anyway, I start the new year with my employer taking out 7% for 401K and I am not sure how much they match, but have decided I can afford that, already have an account they set up for me so will keep adding, right now it would pay off the house, next year it should be enough to pay off house and most of the credit debt if I keep working on both house payments and debt load the way I have. 2 years from now it would pay any remaining debt and do a bit more work on the house or vehicle.
Looking down the years at the possibility of being disabled and not able to work until retirement, or having to retire at 62. And it is not that far away, so ya, I need to think to my future and plan to have some stability and not be starving out or loose my home. And the coffee is made, I have scones I made yesterday to eat for breakfast and some sewing plans for this morning. I go with Larry to a meal at his daughter's house today. Would rather stay holed up in my attic space, play with my dolls, take my dog out for potty walks....
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