Sunday was cloudy with storms coming our way, again. But I got the bird cage cleaned, dishes washed, cinnamon bread made, counters cleaned up, and some floor sweeping done along with getting the bagged insulation down into the utility area and out of my bathroom wardrobe area so now my shoes actually can be tidy and not something I trip over.
And I pulled some weeds, started a pair of socks for me, had some movie time, enjoyed my quiet house and am ready for another week at work. Saturday night I enjoyed a long soak in a tub with Shadow and music for company, I like having the music but thought Shadow could have found a better place to nap than right against the bathtub.
Now, I am looking at having another good week at work, a choice I make, every day, think and believe it will be a good work day and it usually is. No work place is perfect but I have worked at far worse places for less pay and less or no benefits, and I like those benefits.
My life has a lot of poor or bad choices and a lot of time picking up the pieces, dealing with the problems my own choices had made or had brought into my life but the last 10+ years have had a lot of stability and good choices. This old house still needs a lot of work and it has taken a lot of money and time but I am still better here than if I was renting and a lot happier.
The decision to end a dating relationship was slow in coming, guilt trips about abandoning the man to be alone, but I had to keep reminding myself that he could change that, it was not my job or place in life to be miserable so he had company. But as I go into this summer, it is an easier summer, my time is mine, when I am not at work and what I do with it is my choice.
I want more involvement with Clayville.org but know that has to be weekends, at least as long as I am working and I want to work as long as I can. Not only is that financially smart but I like working, and I like all that it gives me, from paycheck to benefits to some order, routine and balance in my life.
This is the first weekend I have not had doll sewing to get done or that I was pushing myself to do, I needed this break, and the house needed the attention, the kitchen needed the dishes caught up, the counters needed to be cleaner and I really needed the floors swept better before the place drove me insane.
I need to work harder on financial discipline and will have to push myself harder for that but I am managing to stay afloat, the slush funds are not growing and I would be happier if I saw a bit of gain there, even a tiny bit but the medical bills are getting paid, July should put me down to just 2 accounts to pay on, I think there has been a total of 8 or 9, so that is progress.
Dolls and doll support sucks up far too much of my money and I need to work on that, and consider selling a doll or several. And work on making clothing and putting it up for sale, I have the skill and ability to do that, but wil not push myself enough.
All in all, it is a good and stable life I am building here and the choices keep being good choices for my life, and I am making sure I remember that it is my life and keep it at way. I am done with building a life for the benefit of someone else or building my life around someone else.
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